Javier and Andrea's Classes gave me very big impact, especially their teaching or "preaching" on attitude of real tango. In one of the classes, we was so moved that we cried, and many of you came to us to ask why, what make us so touched ... we would like to share that with you here ... Javier and Andrea's Classes gave me very big impact, especially their teaching or "preaching" on attitude of real tango. In one of the classes, we was so moved that we cried, and many of you came to us to ask why, what make us so touched ... we would like to share that with you here. In that particular class, he talked about to dance with all your heart, which all of us know this already, but what striked me was one sentense he said, " ... before i performed last night, i prayed that i can feel ... I'm afraid of NOT feeling, afraid of one day, i won't feel as much ... but i don't know why you guys seems to be all too afraid of feeling ..." i heard this and i was plunged into deep reflection, and he kept on saying "... To feel in tango, there's nothing about sex, or whatever beyond the dance, tango is a very pure form of love, to care about one person, just in one dance, and after that, it's your own life, there's nothing to be afraid of ... " and i said to myself, yes, many of us are too afraid that we have "feeling" with someone when we danced, or that we might transmit false feeling to others, and we tried to kill the feelings or restrain ourselves, why are we so afraid of feeling? ... and he continued, "... when i dance, or perform, i try to feel, because i know if i don't feel anything, my partner won't be able to feel anything and the audience just won't feel anything at all ... a good show to me is one when you receive very little applause, cos people are so moved and absorbed into what they've seen that they cannot react but with just a brief sigh of wao ... " After his speech, i guess not only me, but many of us became silent and was touched, he took the chance and asked us to use all our feeling to dance a tango, just one tango ... I danced with Raymond. We started the tango and through the embrace which i had already felt something different, and when we danced, we let our feeling come out, and the more it's released, the more we felt we were connected, and the conversation became so intense that i started to weep, cos i have never felt Raymond has a feeling so strong, that it really moved me ... and i was also responding with all my feelings without caring what i'm dancing at all, all i want at that time is to express all i felt, and ... when the music ends, we were so impassioned that we just can't help bursting into tears ... For quite some time after some tango trances i've experienced at the early stage of my tango life, i was all too concerned about the techniques and every details of posture, dynamic, embrace, musicality, etc ... i know i have to dance and feel, but if any one of these aspects is not going right, i cannot let go, it was quite a struggle for me, but this time, Raymond said i was totally connected ... finally, i surrendered ... I believe this kind of feeling is not limited to couples, it was out of the love for tango, not the love between 2 persons. Of course, with someone you trust, it might be easier (or even more difficult, this is very complex) ... but the point i am trying to make is that, don't be afraid to feel and to express. Another day, he again talked about the attitude that we embraced, he saw we were all absent in the embrace, and he said "... imagine you go out of the class and get crashed by a car, what you can remember of the last tango would be such a lousy embrace ... how bad it is ... " again i was astonished, i don't expect someone who has danced more than 10 years, and nearly everyday in the 10 years, still treasure every tango so much. His words again, reminded me to treasure every tango that i dance, no matter the partner has good technique or not, so long as he/she dances with respect, use our hearts to feel, if we can do this, every tango would be beautiful. |
